Thursday, December 15, 2005

god. my only off day for the whole week. fck.

went to sentosa with guides ppl! haha. grace joined us today. it was so so so fun. grace's like a LOBSTER i tell you. whole thing burn until red. aha. i was the least red. but when i went to LJ to meet the rest for amily's bday celebration, chris said my face look like the monkey's butt. ): evil.

my mood for the beginning of the day was great. really. but after i left sentosa; my mood dampened.

maybe it was the location. and the time. and the emotions. i don't understand what i'm feeling, how i'm feeling or why i'm even feeling this way. you think it's weird? yeah, i think so too. one minute i could laugh, the other minute i could just break down and cry and sob my ass off.

why? it's because of you.

i hate the way you always make me feel so fragile. i hate it i hate it. i thought i could forget everything, i had time on my side. i had everything to make me forget. but what was it that was stopping me? what exactly was it?

..what if your blanks were referring to me? ~~false hope~~.
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EDITED PART: yeah. they were referring to me.

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