Saturday, September 30, 2006
i've been suffering from serious insomenia(sp?) for the past few days; i sleep at 12 plus close to one when i tug in bed at 10. ugh, my eyebags are growing bigger day by day.CIAs went studying today after Geog at MP Library. it was so crowded that we couldn't even find a decent table to study on. and we ended up studying on the carpeted floor at a isolated corner on the M level.
Miko went home after awhile, and the other three of us went to Parkway since Jierong wanted to eat. got caught in the rain on the way there. ): and Imee even went, 'AIYAAAH from library go Parkway only will get caught in the rain for like 2 seconds only lah!'
-.-.. yeah right.
ended up with not so productive study at KFC. we kinda chatted rather than study. Imee went off for church and then Jierong and me took 32 from Katong and i took a bus from there while he took the MRT.
i told Jierong about my dad getting paid by M1 on a monthly basis just bcos they want to to put an antenna on the top of his factory building, which is high-rised.
LOL.
okay it's quite random, but i found it really funny. i mean, you pay 2500 a month just to put a bloody antenna on top of someone else's building? wtf, daylight robbery. but that's okay, this means i can get money from him more easily now. :D
i don't think it'll be another productive day of studying again. ):
i need time time time..
» 4:54 PM
the clock's almost hitting twelve, and a new day starts in a few more minutes.
Yuwen and Kailiang said i'll get diabetes when i grow old, cos i feel thirsty all the time. *shrugs. they said it's according to research. ugh, then Althea should get it before me.. since she used to drink water from my waterbottle all the time.
doesn't matter anyway.
- better off dead.
wonder how ironical things could get, when you thought those that had the most ended up with the least at times; and somehow ppl you thought never really had anything feels the most out of themselves.
whenever guilt gets the better of me, i constantly remind myself that she's not worth it.
no, not worth it.
my mind's misted by too much stuff that it's even hard for me to just sit down and think and not move and stop shaking my leg bcos i feel so restless. stupid feeling, yes i know.. i wished i could shake it off too.
but that's alright.
CIAs will help clear my mind tml after Geog.
(:
i'm gonna do badly for EOYs this time. i just wanna get promoted, and yes my sentence ends here.
new skin btw. kinda mismatched colours clashed together, but i like the feeling it gives whenever i look at it. :D
the clock just hit 12, it's a new day.
so see you. (:
» 12:01 AM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
and i'm back.(:
things haven't been going smooth for me lately. i'm stressed over not having enough time to study for EOYs, and yet i've been sitting in front of my com working on Althea's skin and changing my URL since 6 ever since i got home.
(okay, i'm sorry i changed it again.)
ANYWAY,
i am hopeless.
i need help, badly. i felt so hopeless during Physics period in class today when everyone knew exactly what was going on during revision; while i just stared helplessly at Mr Hao's balding head.
Geog? ha. fuck that lah okay. i can't believe i suggested the class to come back on Saturday to revise Weather Studies thoroughly all over again.
E and A maths, i failed both at a E8 for CA2. SADLAH SADLAH. ABBY HOPELESS LAH. i seriously need to do something about myself.
and so i go on and on rambling about how i would change and study for EOYs and i'm still here.
my heart feels like it weighs ten tonnes.
now the story's played out like this,
just like a paperback novel.
let's rewrite an ending that fits.
instead of a Hollywood horror.
i guess she's right. i should just ignore this feeling of hurt and disappointment.
it's not worth it.
» 9:21 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
i need a break from this place.> I'll be back.
» 3:02 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
so yes, they showed the OPC film today during recess.i had a quote there that ended the entire film, and i realised Jacob took that quote from one of my entries. well, he did for all the rest too.. Don, Weirong, and Nick.
best thing of all - spell my name as Abigail.
ugh.
i hate it when ppl misspell my name. i'm gonna email Jacob and tell him to edit it. HAHAA.
guys guys guys i miss you guys, and all the stupid stuff we did there together at NZ. ):
Prelims was pretty smooth, i guess. 40:60 chances of failing. but hell with it, i gave it my best shot already.
i guess it's true when people say a leopard never changes it spots.
what you are, is what you'll always be. why help someone that doesn't even wanna help herself in the first place?
if you haven't realised, what you thought as antidote you took everyday was actually hallucinating pills - which made you much worse.
everyone's glad you've thought it through. you've said it a millionth zillionth time, you always go, 'yes i'll change, i'll wake myself up, i'll stop crying, i'll start smiling.'
what's the point of saying all this when everything just turns back like they were the moment your mouth shuts after your sentence is done?
pointless.., don't you think?
so what are friends suppose to do about it? how much help can help be to you, if we gave our fullest, or even the least when you just shove our words and advice aside, and probably just go, 'you don't understand me.'
i think i'm becoming more and more like you. i always go to myself, 'i'll wash my hands off you.'; but time and again, i'd always believed that i could be of help - and i put my faith in you like i'd did a hundred times ago.. just to watch you crumble like i had been of no help at all.
i give up, really. it's been for years since this had been going on. your drama never ends, and if you're not tired of it yet.. i am.
you think too much, you think the world is always against you. you think you're the most sorrowful thing God had ever created in the name of mankind. but look, you're not. you have legs, hands, and beautiful eyes to see this world. be glad for what you have, and you'll find the light out of this darkness.
you said it again. you said you'll change, like you did 4385179 times ago. you said you'll start a new you, you said you'll put your past down and have a whole new beginning.
well, i'll wait and see.
i'm sorry, but i can't take this.
and yes, my sentence ends here.
» 6:34 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Weirong said they'll be showing the NZ flim we had at OPC on the plasma tv at the canteen during recess.a part of me seriously wanna look forward to it to see all the stupid stuff we did there and probably give me that awwwww feeling which makes me wanna hug my other 19 halfs again.
but the other part of me goes..
i don't wanna get malu-ed.
i don't wanna get malu-ed.
I DON'T WANNA GET MALU-ED. ):
wlao, just picture us getting brushed by leaves on our faces and singing all those stupid childish songs, wearing the same clothes looking like clones of each other that gone disfigured in the process.
DAMN.
Weirong said Cherie said it. but well, not confirmed yet... i guess. ><
Prelims tml for me, i pray for myself.
till then.
» 9:01 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
it's one of those days, when you feel like fuck. you feel so fuck, you don't even know where you're heading, or what you're feeling.. or even, what's waiting for you out there.don't you feel scared, small and just helpless? you watch time go by like this, and you sit there waiting for something to happen.
when you know, nothing will.
unless you do something about it.
i've tried escaping it so many times, keeping it to myself.. and have that usual thought in my mind saying that i'm tough enough to handle everything. and so everyday, i got to put on that fucking smile and laugh and smile; just to ease the pain.
so i feel that affected by just your presence of only 3 seconds on pure coincidence since 2 days ago.
tell me, when can i finally rest my head on something real? something that wasn't from my own imagination?
don't make me tear up inside when i haven't even glued the pieces back together.
i know, it'll never be worth it.
» 9:07 PM
i guess Emaths test today was better than i thought! :D
well, probably i'll just get a borderline pass.. but AT LEAST i do the paper and know what i'm doing.
i got caught eating and drinking by Mr Victor Foo today twice when i was on the way up to class, suay. i swear, he managed to catch me the secondth time bcos he stalked me to see if i really went back to the canteen to eat my burger. ugh.
i'm back home early and i'm proud of myself. my first step, to EOYs.
I JUST REALISED I FORGOT TO COLLECT MY IC AGAIN. ))))))))))))))): damn damn damn. i was probably too absorbed in sorting out the cookies and collecting money and ticking the names on who i gave the cookies to already and who paid.
anyway.
a very big thank you to everyone who bought Guides cookies from me! :D and special thanks to Althea, for helping me carry the cookies out of the Guides room and Jo, for your successful attempt along Haig Road on disposing the box which has my name on it.
okay but here's the disappoint part; i have this paper where i wrote down all the orders with the names and stuff, and there's a corner of the paper that's torn. and yeah, i can't find that torn part.
the last person on my list of paper had his/her name cut off, and it left with only the last letter of the name, F, on the paper.
that person with the name ending with letter F ordered one mint one chocolate from me, but i can't rmb who. so if it's you.. do tell me about it yeah? i'm soo soo soo sorry. :/
more orders welcomed btw. (:
just a random picture in tribute to Shahirah Price.
thank you best friend, for being such an entertainment to me all the time.
you SBB, stupid brainless bimbo. i love you. <3
life's short.
so snap out of your homemade drama.
» 5:17 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
okay i'm sorry for my fickle preference of my url.do relink, and i promise i won't change it for some time already.
for the tags, i'll reply some other day when i feel like it.
Alison, just add me yeah? :D
see you lovers.
» 11:14 PM
have i mentioned that my phone's been taken away for goood?
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))':
so yeah, it's not that i dao you when you msg me.
it's bcos i don't have my phone.
» 11:15 AM
One Last Dance
- Craig David.
okay okay OKKKKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
i know i haven't been updating.. well, blame it on my internet connection okay. it's so screwed up i can't take it. ):
Chinese Prelims P1 was not as bad as i thought, just that the pen i lent from Althea to use for the paper went inkless after two hours. haha, sorry Tsang Wing Ning.
exams are coming and Imee and me still shopped at Parkway yesterday when she waited for me along with Weirong in school till my paper ended. we left our files in a fire hose reel at the basement cos we were so lazy to carry it in our hands and make us look like stupid nerds.. and guess what, we almost forgot about it when we were about to go back. hahahha!
i hope i mug my day away today.
waking up early is one sign of motivation. :D
i'm just waiting for Shahirah Price to get her lazy butt off her bed.
ever since i haven't been using the com lately, i found the TV as another revenue. Sg Idol, those stupid Chinese dramas, Lost, those stupid chinese reality show.. you name it. i leave my TV on from 7 to 11.30 now.
as for Singapore Idol,
JONATHAN LEONG SHOULD JUST BURN IN HELL. ):
stupid ahbeng can't make it. ughughugh. Hady Mirza must win!
anyway don't come here anymore, i won't update often until when exams ends..
go study also lah you!
-.-
» 10:41 AM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
i get so easily amused by Lim Kailiang's jokes.
KL: eh i tell you a Pokemon joke.
Abby: what?
KL: kay lah, one day Ash fell sick. then he went to see the doctor and the doctor told him he was HIV Positive and had alot of other crap STD diseases. then Ash went, 'oh my god!' and the doctor told him, 'don't worry.. soon enough, you're gotta catch 'em all!
Abby: ROFL WTF?!
wlao, he can be a joker when he grows up man. ><
well well, we got our eoy timetable today. exams officially starts on the 2nd october. that's like, three weeks.. minus one day. ):
things has been going rather rough for me these days. my phone bill's back, and it shot up to $16_. i can't rmb. my mum was screaming over the phone at such a high frequency, that i couldn't really make out what exactly she was saying.
all i knew was that she ended everything by saying. 'i'm cutting off your line tml.' and boom, the phone slammed.
so much for parents setting a good exmple for their children on manners.
my phone has been lagging, and my com's dying from viruses bcos my antivirus system thing isn't working. UGH.
i restarted my com ytd for about 43875947 times before i finally decided to give up and watch America's Next Top Model instead.
damn, the girls there are so effing hot.
i guess i've been upset these few days. i'm either really high up there, or seriously.. down there. moodswings, in case you didn't know what it's called. Jierong say i pms at him.. sorry lah okay. it's not my time of the month now anyway. -.-
i don't indulge in self-pity.
i am not emo, so stop saying i am.
the irony of it all.. is when you fought so hard for it in the first place, and when you finally had it.. you didn't cherish it at all.
well, i guess it doesn't matter anymore. i said everything i wanted to already. i want everuthing to end just here.
i'm sorry.
but it won't happen again.
i'm just, unstable within.
» 7:59 PM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
school starts tml!i haven't completed any of my hw, wu ha ha ha.
the headache's getting to me worse than it was yesterday. shouldn't have drank Contreau. ):
well so much for hanging out with my cousins today. Whee just came back from Thailand for some army base training thing, and we were supposedly suppose to hit Kbox today. but my mum, stupid wet wet duper wet blanket, don't want let me go. damn.
shit, a mosquito just bit me on my leg. ):
spent the whole day yesterday with Price. from KFC Siglap to Parkway, and from Katong to home. we laughed at the stupidiest things on impromptu huh? LOL.
and somehow, the stuff we think are funny.. no one else understands them.
watched I am Sam on recommendation by Jierong yesterday night along with Price at her house. god damn touching show, i swear. it's those kind of show where you can catch yourself tearing accidently.
i come up with weird quotes.
quotes like,
"you feel as though you're hanging your hopes on a lil tree; and once the wind blows, your hopes just falls flat, like they were in square one."
get the picture pig? ):
» 1:15 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
AH I LOOOVE THE THREE OF THEM.thanks to the two pros for teaching the two noobs blading.
i got soo many cuts. ):
for more, visit this. :D
» 12:10 AM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
another useless day gone to waste, followed with once another failed attempt to complete my homework with Ni and Mee at Gelare.(they gave me a rose they bought from Parkway! :D)
i've been going to Siglap for practically everyday in the whole hols. and the ppl i meet there, are just.. unexpected, lol.
i meet more and more and more ppl there. -.-
so not Siglap-ish anymore. ):
i guess i'm just not ready for this.
» 9:54 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
this picture made my day.
laugh with me!
HAHAHHAHAHAHHA.
» 6:39 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
i got busted yesterday night when i was caught sneaking out. ):thanks Price, for helping me cover up.
Imee, thanks for the sunflower which you gave me a few days back. it may be withering already, but i still change the water everyday okay. hahha.
andandand! the Cabury Boost. hahahaha. i can't believe you were serious on buying one for me when i was pissed about my results. :/
i've been buying too much stuff lately. bcos i've been going out too much. bottom line is, i'm starting to owe a few some cash again. ): ugh.
do prompt me to pay you back the money if i do owe you any, cos my memory's failing me. ):
my results..sigh.
i guess i'm just in one of those pathetic mood where you really don't feel like doing anything at all. you just wanna sit, stone.. and just stare into space. o.O
AIYEEEH.
it feels as though everything's falling apart.
CURLIES WHERE ARE YOU GUYSSSS.
THOSE USUALS, WHERE ARE YOU GUYS TOOO.
frankly speaking,
i didn't really had much of a mood to blog.
..but well, at least i tried.
» 6:11 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
i'm in the mood for quizzes today.| Your Lucky Underwear is Blue |
 You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first. |
| You Are An ESFJ |
The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. Profile of a ESFJ |
i did many other quizzes and so did Winston(not imee's, primary school one). and we had a handful of our results that were the same. HAHA.
i didn't blog much ytd, except uploading two pictures that we took. well okay i went back to Ngee Ann and strangely, most of the teachers could still remember my face and my name. to name, Mrs Pung, Mrs Chen and Mrs Kee. :D
about 20 of us went to catch a 430 show of Monster House at Marina Square. i like that pic of Daryl holding the long stream of tickets. hahahhaa. the show's for kids lah. if i knew the plot, i wouldn't waste 8 bucks watching a house eat up toys. -.-
catched up with lots of friends. I MISS ALL OF THEM SO MUCH I SWEAR. it's so weird to all go out wearing different uniforms and some of them even wore home clothes. ha.
i had a great great time, seriously. [:
(*she said 4 uploaded, the other three is worksheets. okay lah, still the same.)
):
DUBDEW TEE AFE.
so much for Happy Teacher's Day.
» 3:51 PM