hey heyy.
tired today. VERY. fell asleep one the bed when i wasn't suppose to. lol.anyway; not much today also larh. don't even feel like blogging actually. stayed back to accompany shearen imee jo. imee and jo got field events for the sports heats; so me and shearen do hw in the canteen.
as you noe, i'm broke. shearen treated me when i didn't want to. and jo treat me to drinks. xD thanks. i noe you're reading this jo and shearen. xD
yupp. so like that. reached home abt 6 plus. knocked out. phew. so tired. zZZz.
Monday, March 21, 2005
LALALALA. x)
i'm a happy person. LOL.
okay, retarded. fine larh!
don't ask me why i'm happy.
i just am.
today's first day of school since march holidays.
kinda sucked; BUT.
i'm still a happy lala girl despite that. xD
insanity. OMG. =x
hahaaa. anyway, ahyar didn't come today. so i spent the period studying ting xie; which i screwed up, after all. sighh. nvm, it's over already.
mrs chen changed my place!! T.T from right in front to almost behind. wthh. now yong jie take my place. zZZz. seperated from yy and mich already. ohhh well. i'm still happy happpy happy. and i'll always be from now on. xD
going to change my blogskin. this skin kinda depressing. =/
any recommendations ppl? lol.
anyway, a few of you tagged my board, so here are my replies.
shiii'nn - hahahaha. you're practically spamming my board; but that's alright, cos i love spamming too. xD
ying - that's not the way, you're running away from the prob. don't wanna face responsibility for the murder of your laopo's death.. NVM. it's fine with me, let's divorce!! LOL.
jingy - YUP. i love you too jingy. xD
u knw.. - HMM. you should noe right. x))
» 11:21 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
having a BAD headache now.
not exactly in a very good mood.
had tuition almost the whole damn day.
angry angry angry.
sighh.
school's starting tml.
CRAP.
my homework not done;
gone-case.
sighh.
the thought of suicidal always come into my mind now and then.
don't see the point in living, anymore.
just depressed.
as usual.
» 7:39 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
i'm not in the mood for blogging now, but i'm just gonna do it still, cos i haven't blogged the whole day yet.
so anyway, we went for that stupid, lame, fulla crap history excursion today. it finished abt 11 plus; after that went parkway with some other twoodee girls to eat lunch. the rest wanted to have mos burger, so mich and me went yoshinoya. didn't have enough money to even buy a decnt meal, so i bought a sidekick. $3.20. sighh. broke broke broke, i'm broke. =( my financial prob is making me soo depressed. hai.
btw, one thing made me happy today, i paid cynthia the six bucks i owe her!! xD
yay yay YAY. ((:
haha. anyway; when expo just now with my folks. they had a carrefour fair there. bought a white op blouse for $11.9o.
so yup. that's abt it for my day.
time for my thoughts. =)
feeling damn guilty now. sighh. suddenly i feel like a pampered and spoilt kid making ppl worry for me bcos of my major moodswings and my major depresssion towards life. but i really can't help it if i actually feel this way; can i? sighh.
but i'm kinda happy today, finally let some stuff out.
eg. my nickname. xD
it's:
* _ABYGAIL` # iLORVEyoo . yupp` i really do. xD
=)))))))))))
i just wanna tell you i love you. i finally let it out. i feel so much better. x)
btw, just a quote here from yenn ying.
ll.sUrReaLiTy.ll-€eZIeR Spastic. says:
mental reminder. first person if i ever get to kill is you, then juwel then michelle
oh wellllll. =/ kill me then.
» 10:33 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005
story's just beginning.
everything's already starting to fade.
unspoken words weren't given the chance to speak;
guess it's just too late.
maybe these two were never meant to be,
they just ate the wrong pills that day,
and said stuff they weren't suppose to tell.
or didn't say stuff they were actually suppose to tell.
one told,
did he/she meant what he/she said?
the other zipped,
did he/she actually had smth to say?
no use looking back anyway,
all's gone.
it's just a dream.
is it not?
contradictions. i'm just so fucking fed up. i need an answer, badly.
very badly. sighh.
» 8:28 PM
yo.
went to cathay today with imee and shearen. took neos and watched spongebob. kinda a great day to start with. came back money-less as usual. zZZz.
met the (according to jo) CUTE SALVATION ARMY GUY. hahaha. the one jo has a crush one for WEEKS. lol. jo was screaming over the phone when we told her we met him. so much for playing tennis jo. =D
anyway, i just reached home. tired. depressed. sad.
sighh.
gtg eat dinner already. bye.
» 8:07 PM
1.06 in the morning.
still can't sleep,
not that i don't want to.
my eyelids seems to be a few times heavier;
but i still can't get to sleep.
a lot of stuff on my mind larh.
irrelavant stuff of the past.
fcuk the memories.
frustrated.
if i could actually forgot everything; sighh.
thinking abt it now, i was kinda dumb. to take in every word he said to me.
he's just a liar. a major liar.
what's the point of crying abt it,
or actually be sad abt it.
i'm gonna start all over again.
pick myself up once again.
i noe i can do it; it's gonna be easy.
right?
» 1:06 AM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
heyy!
x)
kinda in a happy happy mood now; for NO reason. lol. but isn't that like good? it's been such a long time since i've felt happy for NOTHING. haha.
ok went to kbox today with josephine, shearen, imee and rachel. XD
we rocked man.
sing/scream and sing/scream.
shout shout shout.
OMG. so paiseh; but it was fun. haha.
after that went to mpcc, then headed home at abt 3 plus close to four like that.
i was suppose to have tuition at 7.30, but it was cancelled cos mr fadhil sick. poor guy. =x
so went to parkway anyhow; mummy bought a all in one; the kind got scanner/printer/fax/photocopier etc etc. coming in on sat.
went giant shop shop for groceries and abt 10 plus went home.
YEP. that's abt it.
an announcement to make:
JOSEPHINE CHRISTINA IS OFFICIALLY MY STEAD!!
YAY. x)) hahahaha. jooooo, i bet you're looking at this; tag the board if you did. x)
» 11:39 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
HEY. ((:
i'm bored; oh well. nothing to blog abt.
had tuition today.
so bye.
» 9:54 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
morning. =D
i haven't started on my hw. sighh. so much for motivation right. =/
later gonna go bedok interchange; pass yy the adobe cd cos she needs it then meet x for lunch.
i was hoping for LONG JOHN SILVERS. hahaa. been a long time since i've taken the fries.
after that, should be abt two right. take mrt to ah ma's. she wants me to go white sands with her and botak(my lil cousin). he wants to buy books. so yeah like that larh. and i was SOO happy yesterday.
ah gong is FREE OF CANCER CELLS. x))))))))
my mum was in a super good mood bcos of it. sucha miracle; really really so happy. =D
but he still has to go checkup once every 3 months, to make sure.
BUT STILL. i'm SO happy. x)
okay. i'm getting psycho already. haha. blog later in the day or smth. gtg shower and start my day off.
HAVE A NICE DAY PPL. =)
» 10:37 AM
Monday, March 14, 2005
I'M SUPER HUNGRY. =(((((
just woke up. and i'm in the mood for blogging. altho there isn't really any specific reason why i sholud blog; i just feel like blogging. oh well.
suppose to go training with shearen and jo later on. but we chagned our plans to just shopping. hahaa. how expected. thinking of going to junction 8. lol. all the way to bishan. very very sick of orchard already =/
so yarh, like that. maybe i'll blog in the evening or smth.
okay. bye.
» 9:37 AM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
sighh.
i hate school. got so much hw to do. i don't wanna leave my com!! x(
OH WELL.
btw whoever who's reading this entry pls leave a tag and tell me what's for maths hol hw. i didn't copy down the sums that was needed to be done.
thank you!! x)
» 9:53 PM
replies to taggers.
jasm ii ne ] ]: hahaa. thanks. x)
didi: life IS indeed sad. and i don't see happiness anywhere. sighh.
gerald: GRINS.
» 7:11 PM
i don't wanna be accused of being lazy for not blogging liao.
so yeah.
i'm gonna blog diligently. from now on. xD
just woke up, still very very tired. wanna sleep, but can't sleep. what logic right. zZZz. later i'll have like what, 2 and a half hours of tuition? sigh. so saddening. haven't done my hol hw yet. it's so much to do. yet i'm still so relaxed. can go out shopping and play somemore. lol. i need more motivation. OH WELL.
later i shall go do my hw; yes. i shall.
gerald, stop saying i'm lazy. see? i blogged after all. haha. x)
» 12:03 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
i'm LAZY to blog.
sorry. =(
» 11:23 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
yay. just finished my hw. jo and shearan came over today. we laughed like siao; BIG TIME. lol. created a game called three monkeys. hahaa. how lame can we actually get. it's smth like heart attack larh. just that it's played in a different way.
they stayed until abt seven like that, then shearen took a bus with me to parkway there for tuition since she stayed around that area too. jo sad case, take bus herself. haha. cos she's going in another direction.
ANYWAY. myeong weon joined my english tuition. SHOCKED. lol. i was late for class then when i entered the class kelvin was like, 'eh abygail, ni de hao peng you.' lol. like WHATEVER. tuition today was okay larh. mr fadhil treat me to roti boy. lol. just bcos i told him i didn't take my dinner. so yeah the bread was a lil too sweet but it's nice anyhow.
sighh.
time changes everything doesn't it. it's not that it's gone; it's just that my perception of view is different now. it's not that i don't care, it's just that i'm acting like i don't wanna care. but it hurts so deep inside. sigh.
disappointed. damn badly. don't ask what. don't ask me why. don't ask me if i'm okay. PLS. FOR ONCE. LEAVE ME ALONE.
thank you very much.
» 10:37 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
everyone is having problems. EVERYONE.
sigh.
» 9:34 PM
sadistic world. i hate my life.
so fcuking fed up already. oh wait, do anyone even bother to understand this statement i've made?
got to force-fake a smile everyday. how shallow ain't it. i didn't bother to smile today. why? cos i didn't feel like to.
feel so backstbbed; hurt; sad; abandoned; alone.
shouting out to the whole world that i'm NOT okay, but no one seems to bother.
i'm waiting for the pain of death, i dreading every other second of my life.
» 12:49 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
went to bugis today with jinghan; that mad mad girl. LOL.
we went there to take neos and supposingly to buy bread to eat at breadtalk too.
but we didn't eat bread in the end; cos jingy lost the voucher. hahhaa.
EH WAIT. we did but buy the bread at breaktalk still. in the end that is. haha. sorry for my lousy memory. =x
anywayy. we tooks NEOS! ahhh. the neoos rocked like crazy. haha. took the one with the yellow couch one; THAT 10 BUCKS one. lol. it was really nice. we spent more than 15 mins decorating it cos of its unlimited time. haha.
btw; i'm BROKE.
warning to ppl out there: STOP LENDING ME MONEY.
thank you very much.
debt list*
yenn ying - $15.50
cynthia- $6
jo- $5.45
leonard- $5.00
who else is missed out? tag me or sms me or just simply tell me.
ahhhhhh. i'm so dead. shoot me someone.
» 7:50 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
AHHHHHH. i almost forgot. zZZz.
IT`S RACHEL'S & JUN RUI'S BDAY TODAY.
HAPPY BITRHDAY TO THE BOTH OF YOU!! x)
i loooove you guys.
smoooch*
» 8:30 PM
hey hey hey!
yo yo yo!
i'm in a hyper active mood. in a BLOGGING mood. lol! nothing much happened compared to the last two days where so much hilarious stuff happened and yet i didn't blog abt it. fine. weird. whatever.
ate at pizza hut with yy after school today. school was sianed as usual. plus i was kinda pissed off larh; suming up to a not so good day. but the time at pizza hut cheered me up a lil. i brought all my neos to school today cos i was planning to go yy's house after school to scan them one by one. LOL. so yeah we were going throughmy neos; then we talked abt the old times. LOL. kinda drama, but we sat there talking for an hour or so before we headed home.
lalala~ hw not done. but WHO CARES. i'm so sick and tired of hw already. so stressed up. sighh. crap life man.
i hate my life.
» 8:05 PM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
thump de dum.
had piano lesson;
followed by tuition;
and then went to grannie's.
that does it.
bye.
» 10:27 PM
i'm SUPER disgusted with someone's blog post.
hah. she calls herself a bitch. yet she's ANGRY over the fact that OTHERS calls her a bitch; as well.
WHAT'S HER FREAKING PROBLEM?
if she really didn't care if ppl called her a bitch OR not (according to her post that is), she wouldn't EVEN bother to post it on her blog.
man, i'm SOOOOOOOOO disgusted.
yuck yuck yuck.
» 12:16 AM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
tk road run tml. i'm NOT gonna run. so crappy. run for what. waste energy. not as if i'll get top 50 or 80 like that. lol. last year i ran; ran like CRAZY. in the end ? i got 52th. zZZz.
when i told my mum i'm not gonna run, she said:
USELESS.
fine. i am. happy ? ahhhhhhhh. i'm DEPRESSED. sighh.
went to bayshore today play pool after school with shearen, jo and rachel. played on game then went to jo's house to do homework. hahaa. her maid cooked maggi mee for us. then sat around until i think abt 6 larh. after that took a bus with rachel back home.
boring day basically. so yeah.
» 10:29 PM
my science results SUCKS.
sighh. i'm so depressed. results sucks. life sucks. SCHOOL sucks.
just let me die.
sighh.
» 7:04 PM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
I'M SO FULL. lol. had dinner like one hour ago but i'm still feeling bloated. oh well. must be indigestion prob again. haha.
had tuition today as usual at five. went to chow's house between that time. went there ate maggi mee. haha. kinda a easy going day for me. wednesday is OFFICIALLY slack day. i loooove wednesdays. lol.
i got lost today actually. -_- k larh i noe you must be thinking *wth??* but yeah. i seriously got lost. YEAH. okay, i was suppose to go parkway for tuition from chow's house. i'm NOT familiar with that area at all; didn't noe which direction this way goes and stuff like that. i was suppose to walk to east shore there to take 15. called chow up on the way there cos i couldn't fine the bus stop. chow said take the one opposite east shore. I FOLLOWED HER INSTRUCTIONS. so i hopped onto the bus; sat beside this lady.
the bus turned to eunos mrt there. and i'm like, ' wth is this ? ' so i asked the lady if this bus goes towards parkway. she said NO. it goes towards pasir ris.
...
i was like OMG, i'm gonna be late for tuition le larhh!! it was abt 4.45 already. tuition starts at FIVE.
panicking panicking. i was panicking. lol.
got off the bus; took the other direction back to parkway.
reached the parkway at 5.o3. cool huh. lol.
k larh; LAME.
» 9:41 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
OKAY I'M GONNA BLOG.
but before i officially start today's entry, i'll say this: SPONGEBOB ROCKS.
shut up yy and shearen. pooh IS NOT CUTE. yeah !
we had an arguement on who's cuter; spongebob or pooh at the bus stop near roxy just now. shearen and yy bullied me all the way. they ganged up and kept saying spongebob stupid. x( so saddening. sighh.
okay, anyway school today sucked as usual. pulled a long face dued to the existence of a particular person. i'm SO fed up abt that; so i won't elaborate further before i get even angrier. and blow up and stuff. argh.
went to parkway with yy, shearen, mich and grace. ate at mos burger. i think i never ate there before. haha. kinda sua koo at what they have and stuff. didn't have money with me cos paid my debts today so shearen lend 5 bucks. NOW, i owe ppl money again. T.T ahh crap.
so eat eat then did math hw there abt five plus close to six headed home.
anway, i got back most of the results, so here it is.
english : not yet.
hmt : 70/100.
history : 18½/25.
lit : 11/25. x( I FAILED.
math : 36/5o. below expections. sighh.
science : not yet.
i think this should be all right ? oh well. my results sucks big time. goatte work harder form id years already. sighh.
» 7:12 PM