Wednesday, October 19, 2005
AH I LOVE THE SONG SOO MUCH.
so cute. (: enjoy.
» 8:03 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
ignore the last post. i decided to update.
currently at my cousin's place. we've been hanging out togehter two days straight. lol. i enjoy family get-togethers. (:
we watched harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban just now. yes, i haven't watched it before; don't laugh damnit. =x it's nice. but i almost dozed off while laying on the bed. haha.
about my results? well, they're just a okay. it's not high enough for me to get into pure science.. then again, it's too good for combine. ohwell. contradiction.
it's hard for me these days after going through all this trauma. wanna know how i'm feeling?
numbed,
hurt,
jealous,
angered.
all mixed together.
how about that.
i'm broke now too. my mum's not giving me any more money for the rest of the month. i got to sell my butt off i guess. i'm just another fcuked up emo that can't handle any more emotions.
it's hard to understand. but no one actually said you had to.
no one understands, anyway.
» 6:17 PM
I CAN'T UPDATE THESE DAYS COS MY COM BROKE DOWN. SORRY! (:
» 3:06 PM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
awww. kinda good day today. but the problem lies with me for thinking it's a bad day bcos of the mood that sucked.
we six plus nicole went to mcD for breakfast. mcD's breakfast is so worth dying for lah. as usual, parkway's was tk infested. lol. then the lady sitting on the next table beside me was like, 'what's the special occasion ah? how come so many of your school ppl here?' LOL. i went, 'oh cos school ended early today ma. then streaming over already. most of us seldom get to eat mcD's breakfast so we come here loh.' wth do you want me to say? ooh oh tml is geog paper but most of us don't really care cos it's our last paper and our perfect gateway to heaven. no right? :D
we crapped there awhile before leaving, doing all kinda of 'waves'. lorl. the blink eye wave, the puffed cheeks wave, yada yada. decided to go to the libray after that for some studying lah. it didn't sum up to much though. =/ i was sleepy and puffed up when i was there. just felt like, breaking down.
me and weiru left early cos had geog tuition at one. chilled at 7/11 awhile before we went up cos auntie alvina wasn't home yet. i wasn't okay at that time either.
andrew was there le. then while waiting for weijie to come, i helped to peel taogays. lol. i didn't know andrew was from normal tech stream. he was like, 'ppl look down on normal stream ppl.' wtf? he's from st pat's, but gosh no. he's not a SPB. (st pat's bastard.)
i told him, 'the fact that i didn't believe that you were from normal is bcos of the way you bring yourself out. you act like a express stream student.' i made him happy i guess. (:
we had tuition from about two to six. gave up cos we were liek dying from boredom. then went down for awhile to play badminton. been donkey ages since i've played man. i greatly deproved. zz.
went home like six? weiru dad gave me a lift home. so yes, i'm still in my school u on the com. i'm not studying geog. i give up.
it's probably weird that i blog more faithfully now ever since my blog turned private. maybe it's bcos i feel more you know, closed up and not so exposed. it's irritating how ppl you don't even know personally spy on your thoughts everyday. some kinda online stalker siah. =x
i can't wait for exams to be OVER. it's less than twenty four hours away. muahahahhahas. we're planning to head for orchard tml. hees. it's been a long time since i've hanged out with friends totally.
the chains that ties me on are tight.
but i'm sure it's worth anything..
for me to break away;
even if i bleed.
i'm independent, without you.
» 6:52 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
ah shit. the return of the pms is attacking me like hell. i was in a bad mood, like shit. i'm having serious exam stress that makes me think of NOTHING but exams. kay lah maybe one thing, that only thing that's kinda distracting me. >.<
i hate exams. LAH.
» 7:12 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
oh god, i can't believe i'm actually at east coast mac now. shahirah's with me. that bloody girl wanted to sneak to see fit in his mac uniform. LOL. fit looks like a kid, if you wanted to know that is. xD
i haven't been studying much lately. somehow ever since my paretns came back; my drive kinda seems to fade. it's not a good thing at all. fcuk it's the finals and this fact doesn't seem to have register itself into my mind yet. T.T
i'm not emotionally stable these days either. having moodswings whenever i feel like to. i'm either really happy, or really depressed. don't ask what's wrong. reminding me of it is the last thing i wished you would do.
maybe i should just give everything up, and just begin a new phase all over again. don't say i'll be the one pain if i give up; cos the pain i feel now is not much diff to the pain i'll be feeling later on.
it's hard to forget, it will be. but i'm sure it's worth at least trying. i know i'd be happier that way. i hate the way you try to manipulate my feelings. i have a weak side too. you think this is fair?
i think i've said too much. i'll be going home abt six i guess. good night/morning to all.
» 4:40 AM
Friday, October 07, 2005
maths was chicken feet. i can't believe i'm actually saying this. LOL. kay lah maybe i anticipated a harder paper.. but oh well. overestimated. =/
three days down. three more days to go. i hope i'll do fine for lit. considering the fact that i've never actually read the stories, and i don't seem to have my lit file anywhere in sight. i just can't wait for all this crap to be over. i'll be burning my books and setting up a bon fire. i don't care even if it cost my house, I'LL BE DOING IT.
» 12:59 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
the song's still stuck in my head.
yes, STUCK.
it's not really good when you say nothing at all.
cos i'm depressed.
exams are here. here here here.
final years, they're HERE.
after the stoopid anticipation of twelve stupid months.
final years ARE HERE.
why can't this like, you know. sink into my MIND?
i'm still fooling around.
oh gosh, ABBY.
WTF DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING.
YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO BE STUDYING LAH.
haaaaaai. history was today.
it was a goner.
science ytd. also another goner.
but better than history lah. =/
mum and dad came back today. i'm glad. (: how i hate to admit, but i missed them. lol. they bought me lotsa stuff. and my mum was shooting like a machine gun complaining abt how tired she was when she was there and how much she missed me blah blah blah. you're probably going like. awwwwwwwwwww. lol.
kay maths tml. wish me luck, bye.
» 9:25 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
OMFG. science foy is tomorrow.
what the hell.
just pray it'll be an easy paper.
pls let it be. pls pls oh pls.
today's shearen's fifteenth birthday. x))
all of us got her presents. haha.
to think she anticipated many to DELAY them. zz.
nicole bought her a mango cake.
it's cute lah not pathetic. haha.
but of all things, nicole forgot a lighter.
how nice right.
i lent one from the western stall uncle.
then we surprised her with that small slice of cake during recess. xD
hope she's happy lah. lala!
kay i think i should go sleep liao.
give up studying lah fcuk it.
byye.
» 9:53 PM
Monday, October 03, 2005
screw final years.
i'm sooo freaking stressed.
i hate electricity. i hate chemical equations!
AHHHHHHHH.
some stuff happened today during ce.
i'm not sure if i'm gonna catagorise it under HILARIOUS,
or should it be DEVASTATING.
hilarious, cos it gave most of us a really good laugh.
note the word most.
devastating, cos it kinda caused conflicts.
lala. (; i'm involved, but i don't seem affected.
why? cos pls lah. that person isn't even worth my time.
accuses ppl like no one's business. zz.
GO GET A LIFE LAH CAN.
everyday nothing better to do make up rumours abt ppl and try to ruin their life. THINK SO FUN ISSIT. WANT ME TO DO THAT TO YOU TOO?
that's the shoik part about having private blogs. you can speak your mind and yet you don't get judged. muahha. i'm sucha bitch. but who cares, i know she's way worse than me. lala. (: cheerios ppl. study hard for the exams.
» 11:28 PM
my point seems to be put across i guess. (: i hate my blog being so public.
wasn't the point of blogging be speaking your mind?
just imagine ppl spying on your thoughts and every move.
fcuk that, seriously. just respect the privacy.
new skin, new url.
new phase.
» 1:50 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
i'm going on a new phase. (:
» 4:00 PM