Friday, March 24, 2006
caught
Failure to Launch at Suntec with the usuals. it's been such a long time since i've actually
officially gone out with them; ponning guides was hell darn worth it. those that were selected to go for NDP parde marching (which includes me) got scolded really badly today. Rachel told me we got to write a five hundred word essay reflection. hell fuck. but no choice, i'll be writing it for the sake of the trip to NZ. i want to go there desperately.
ate at LJ Marina Square. funny how we hurried there from Suntec and back from Marina Square to Suntec again to be in time for the movie. I was walking with either Jo, Shearen or Donny most of the time. Mee and Ni were strolling ALL the way i swear. cos ni.. uhh, feels
uncomfortable. ah, that's the word! (: so anyway, we were running in pairs. and it was either Donny or Jo that commented that it feels like the Amazing Race. and Shearen added, "LESBIAN EDITION." LOL. ppl look at us as if we were crazy. embarrassing shit.
don and me reached LJ first. and yupp, been a looong time since i dined food at LJS. lorl. it's amazing how i'm still so familiar with all the prices that i could just calculate Shearen's Value One with an upsized ice tea add cheese in abt less than a minute. "$4.60 right?" i told her. and she gave me that look. :X
took a few fucking hilarious pictures in one of Suntec's toilet with my digicam. i forgot it was actually ILLEGAL to take pictures in public toilets.
To the person that cried on my shoulder today :
i'm sorry for what i've done, in one way or another to how i made your tears stain your face.
i know we've drifted. it's always you that msgs me, sms me, or contact me first. it's never me. well, it's not that i don't care. just that.. i don't know, i've been preoccupied. i do care for you as much as i've used to. maybe even more now, after seeing how fragile you are inside actually. what i thought as a goodbye hug you gave me today turned out out as a shoulder you wanted to cry on to let all your emotions of sadness, anger, and maybe even disappointment out. i know this might sound very error and a whole huge emo shit, but i know that ten years down the road, where maybe both you and i may not be contacting anymore, or that you won't be here in singapore anymore since you hate every inch of this country so much; i'll still remember that it was you and the rest that made my secondary school life great. i'll still remember that you guys were the ppl there for me when i was screwed up. i'll still remember you guys were the ones that bought me a patheticly small birthday cake from breaktalk and delivered them all the way to school(wearing all black and even got chased out of school by DM) bcos i had guides and couldn't go out with you guys to celebrate. dearest, if you ever think that i don't care for you; that's a big fat mistake.
i love you. this may sound lesbian, but yes, i really care for you. and i want you to be okay.
love. <3
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