Wednesday, September 20, 2006
so yes, they showed the OPC film today during recess.
i had a quote there that ended the entire film, and i realised Jacob took that quote from one of my entries. well, he did for all the rest too.. Don, Weirong, and Nick.
best thing of all - spell my name as Abigail.
ugh.
i hate it when ppl misspell my name. i'm gonna email Jacob and tell him to edit it. HAHAA.
guys guys guys i miss you guys, and all the stupid stuff we did there together at NZ. ):
Prelims was pretty smooth, i guess. 40:60 chances of failing. but hell with it, i gave it my best shot already.
i guess it's true when people say a leopard never changes it spots.
what you are, is what you'll always be. why help someone that doesn't even wanna help herself in the first place?
if you haven't realised, what you thought as antidote you took everyday was actually hallucinating pills - which made you much worse.
everyone's glad you've thought it through. you've said it a millionth zillionth time, you always go, 'yes i'll change, i'll wake myself up, i'll stop crying, i'll start smiling.'
what's the point of saying all this when everything just turns back like they were the moment your mouth shuts after your sentence is done?
pointless.., don't you think?
so what are friends suppose to do about it? how much help can help be to you, if we gave our fullest, or even the least when you just shove our words and advice aside, and probably just go, 'you don't understand me.'
i think i'm becoming more and more like you. i always go to myself, 'i'll wash my hands off you.'; but time and again, i'd always believed that i could be of help - and i put my faith in you like i'd did a hundred times ago.. just to watch you crumble like i had been of no help at all.
i give up, really. it's been for years since this had been going on. your drama never ends, and if you're not tired of it yet.. i am.
you think too much, you think the world is always against you. you think you're the most sorrowful thing God had ever created in the name of mankind. but look, you're not. you have legs, hands, and beautiful eyes to see this world. be glad for what you have, and you'll find the light out of this darkness.
you said it again. you said you'll change, like you did 4385179 times ago. you said you'll start a new you, you said you'll put your past down and have a whole new beginning.
well, i'll wait and see.
i'm sorry, but i can't take this.and yes, my sentence ends here.
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