Monday, October 16, 2006

would you lie with me and just forget the world?

too much rubbish happened today. most of the results came back, and well.. it wasn't all that expected. i felt so nervous before every paper came back that i shaked my leg so much i got pins and needles.

English was disappointing. i failed my compo like i'd expected. ):

Chinese, well you know it and so do i. i failed once again, and this time i got pissed cos when i was so sad, Yexi made me sadder when he saw my compo marks and go 'whoa! you only score one third of the total marks.'

i swear i wanted to slap him harder man.

i passed both Maths with much satisfaction,
and i passed History by the skin of my teeth.

more coming tml, and i should get myself mentally prepared inside and outside.

i feel so heavy.
both literally and not literally.

ppl are suppose to have a lighter heart when exams are over and just have this iwanttochill feeling. but for me, i don't. i feel so plagued with things that i'm not even suppose to feel stressed about cos it seems almost too minor that it's dumb to care.

i pmsed so badly today. bcos i'm having it now,(yeah maybe that affected) and that my day didn't go well.

but i don't blame anyone for it.

it's a small world, isn't it? when i saw you coming in, i felt this rush of emotions filling me within. i'm not sure what it really meant, and i'm not keen on knowing either. i'd left everything behind, and i'd never thought i would want that second walk through hell again. what matters now to me is that, everything's lost and gone. why bother with explanations, when you don't even give a fuck? if you still cared, i wouldn't be a yoyo to you. if still you cared.. you wouldn't have left.

but, you did.

and btw,
i lost the job.

they didn't allow 16 and below.
WTF.

PS: i hope Jierong gets a new MP3 soon, since he lost his today. :/

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